I was walking home up until an hour ago and thought that things are on an upward trajectory. I thought about why I’d been spiraling down for so many years. I told myself, shame and guilt, out loud into the passing cars. They are completely useless feelings when they linger too long. There was nothing to be ashamed of and nothing to be guilty about. It was in my power to control how I reacted and I reacted poorly for too long. It happened, I move on and learn.
It is calm. It is dark. It is peaceful.