I’ve been tired since the summer. Perhaps longer than that. Tired of deadlines, mostly, and projects and people that go on for too long. It feels like a sentiment from a bygone era when our work was finished as soon as the game was finished. Now there’s a concept of games as a service, meaning continued support for a game beyond its launch date. I understand if that’s the nature of our business now but it’s exhausting. I like things to end. I feel stretched thin when they don’t. Which is ironic because I deal with the feeling by eating and sleeping. I’m probably at the heaviest I’ve ever been.
I’m due a vacation. I dislike summer and I dislike the holidays. I may just take all of December off. I want spring again and for deadlines to be far off in the distance.
I went out and felt better. Watched a movie in a movie theater, felt better. Went out again today, a Sunday, and felt better. I thought it might be nice to live and/or work in some high-up place. A skyscraper, but if it were all by itself somewhere so I wouldn’t have to cross through city to get to it. A mountain retreat. There was a trailer for Doctor Sleep before the movie I watched and you know, I bet the Overlook Hotel had a nice view. Or the Great Northern Hotel. If I travel this winter, maybe I can look for a place with a waterfall. Someplace with a view. Does Niagara Falls have hotels around it? Seems a shame if it doesn’t. I’m gonna check. Maybe just go and find out when I get there.