I’ve been tired since the summer. Perhaps longer than that. Tired of deadlines, mostly, and projects and people that go on for too long. It feels like a sentiment from a bygone era when our work was finished as soon as the game was finished. Now there’s a concept of games as a service, meaning continued support for a game beyond its launch date. I understand if that’s the nature of our business now but it’s exhausting. I like things to end. I feel stretched thin when they don’t. Which is ironic because I deal with the feeling by eating and sleeping. I’m probably at the heaviest I’ve ever been.

I’m due a vacation. I dislike summer and I dislike the holidays. I may just take all of December off. I want spring again and for deadlines to be far off in the distance.