I know you don’t think it’s a show. I don’t doubt your emotions are real, but what’s the point of all the sad faces and the gnashing of teeth? If you’re not gonna change your behavior — and you won’t — why not just skip the whole exercise? In the end, you’re gonna hurt everyone around you. You can’t help it, so stop apologizing and accept it, embrace it. Frankly, I’d have more respect for you if you did.