It may seem odd that a man would want to sincerely wreck that, especially as some people are soft-minded and do not develop violent associations with their sexual endeavors. I do not know if I wish I was that way or not. It makes little difference when the mentality is there and, even at my most gentle, I want to completely overpower. Utterly annihilate. I like pressing my fingers into forearms, thighs, and buttocks. I’m not sure why. If I see a bruise I think I’ve done something well, and perhaps beautiful.

It gets me thinking about the women I’ve been with recently and if I chose them because they wanted the violence or if they simply remained silent and took it. I certainly got the sense that they enjoyed it.

Personally, I don’t think I can keep it up. But then this life’s not the kind of life that rewards consistency.