I try and fail to explain the savage nature of my being in all matters physical, sexual, spiritual. Within me is this need. Little more than that can describe desire for a freedom unknown to me most of my life. Pampered as a child, domesticated by church, the rope, and the belt. Safe, yes, but what is safety in the cage? I often consider the possibility of escape, of treks without plans; without the safety of cash, card, or car. Walking and desperate for food, taking what is needed as opposed to asking for it. The development of a separation between human remorse and animal need. Application of this to life as a man, as a mate, and as a caretaker. A fully realized member of the human species. Leading not by charismatic appeal but by example. I want to demonstrate that this is how I live, this is how I provide, this is how I fuck… this is how I will die. It is about reliability.
I’ve been accused of being inconsistent my entire life. I’m simply moving forward too quickly for others to adapt.