I’d heard that Korean mothers are particularly critical of the men who date their daughters, and this is the vibe I picked up. I could see it in her forced smile. I tried to imagine what it might be like to be a Korean man and realized I didn’t know enough to do it. I’d only seen some films. Some of them were dubbed.
I parked across the street and approached. It was important not to be the guy who sits in his car and waits.
“Hello,” I said. “Nice to meet you.” She was shorter than you. Her hands were even smaller.
She welcomed me into the foyer, where I waited for nearly a minute. I liked the small framed paintings of country cottages. You never believed me because you’ve seen them since you were a kid. Your mother stood there politely as I told her the name of the film we were going to see. I was prepared to discuss what I do, where I’m from, and all those usual things, but you got us out of there quickly. You explained that she could be overwhelming.
“So can I. Are you afraid she’d chase me away?”
“No! She’s just nosy. I didn’t want to make you go through it.”
“I’d be alright.” I wanted to add that we’re all adults, but it felt ignorant. I don’t know what it’s like to be a mother or a daughter.
The rest of the night went well, for a first date. The film, the tamales, your frankness and mine. It was relatively new to me, but you slipped into it like a warm bed. A side some people didn’t get to see. We were far more personal than I’d become accustomed to in our morning talks. Your love of virtual pets was endearing. I’d never told anyone that I cared for a pair of mice for a brief time in third grade.
“I like you,” I said. “I think we’re hitting it off.”
“I think so, too.” You were inviting. Your smile.
“Would you like to come up? I mean, come back. With me.”
Your face was flushed, but not nearly as much as mine.
“Mm hm.”
“Let’s pick up a bottle of wine.”
I thought about your mother again when we were meant to be asleep. It was a series of thoughts. It goes: I’m fucking your daughter. You hate me, but I’m fucking your daughter, and she’s here in my apartment tonight instead of the bed in your house. I’m keeping her safe. She’s warm and I hope you won’t argue about any of this when she gets home tomorrow. She loves you.