You grow up in a certain way, speaking a certain other language, and you don’t think you’ll ever forget it. It’s there, damn it. It will always be there. This bothers you when you’re young because it’s not the language most people speak. It isn’t the language they speak in the cartoons. You get over this.
It weighs on your mind when you start to lose a native word here and there. It’s the, uh, how do you say it… The word exists, it’s on the tip of your tongue, but it just doesn’t come to you. The impossible begins to happen. Your language begins to atrophy. You wonder why, but you don’t speak it much anymore, do you? You certainly don’t think in that language, not since you were a child. The word for fork. It boggles you, and saddens you a bit. The language you railed against finally gives up on you. It will eventually lose the word for beautiful, or the word for love.
You read the signs and display the subtitles. You pursue feeble attempts at resuscitation.